Look Again

Have you ever read something and either connected with it so much it felt like you wrote it or wondered if the person that did write it knew what you were thinking or feeling? I had a grand plan to start a week long series of posts about our weekend. From start to finish it was filled with family and it was fantastic.

Before I started to prep my posts, after looking through my pictures documenting our families, I headed over to CJane’s blog to read her post today because I really enjoy her writing. What I discovered was quick snippets of her thoughts on her post-partum body and expanding family. It was as if she could hear my insecurities  and thoughts while I looked at my rounded cheeks and chubby arms caught digitally over the weekend.

So, I am abandoning my Family Filled posts until tomorrow because after reading CJane’s post I want to go back and look at the pictures taken of me over the weekend and remind myself that my body is the way it is today because I made Maggie.  I MADE her. Althougth the softness that is my body won’t necessarily all go away, I’m thankful for the reminder that this version of my body is because of Maggie.

Guilt Trip

Today was one of those days that was filled by everything and nothing in the same moment. As I type this Maggie is riding in the Bjorn trying to sleep and Sydney is outside lounging.

I found myself at the grocery store at 7 AM, I left Maggie in Barry’s arms as he watered the lawn and packed his lunch – multi-tasker that Man of Mine!

After I came home Maggie and I headed out to drop off a donation at Value Village, pick up some supplies at Michael’s and go to Costco. All places that Sydney would not love and she really can’t wait in the car with this heat.

Sydney gets so excited when we get home and she typically sniffs and wags around Maggie’s car seat and sniffs me to try and figure out where I went (without her – the nerve!).

Today instead of the typical sniffing and wagging, she just sat and stared at me looking super upset. We had a staring contest for a while and then I offered her some cheese – I think we’re on good terms now.

I was worried there for a moment.

I think she has forgiven Maggie as well.